Family Forum / Marriage / Divorce / November 2007

I need to know if I am in a relationship that is worth being in .  I
am a very inexperienced person when it comes to relationships . I was
married two times and they were greedy and cheated  on me .  I
realize
that I need to take my time and really think about what I am doing
and
make intelligent decisions.  I assume that I have that figured out,
but my problem is that I have met this guy  and we are having a
secret
affair I guess , on my part it is okay that it is a secret b/c I dont
want my kids getting hurt again and his kid also ( they are best
friends)  .                              Well to get started I am
best
friends with his mother and his son practicaly lives at my house and
I
take his just about anywhere I go.  It all started with the
attraction , i like to dress sexy in the summer but not slutty. We
would always say hi to each other and wave and that was just about
it , except when I would be walking down the street and he would see
me and run into the house .(I am 29 and he is 35)  well anyways I was
in a car accident and I had him take me to the store and so on well
we
started talking to each other and he told me that he has always
wanted
to talk to me and ect. but he didnt know how.  Then we started
sleeping together once or twice a week and he would actually spend
the
night and wake up early in the morning and leave so that his mom
wouldnt know that he was at my house ( I live down the block)  Then
there are times that  he comes over we do it and as soon as he is
done
then he says I need to go home now .  Ok  So we see each other pretty
much during the week but barely talk to each other b/c he doesnt want
his mother to catch on .  He comes over maybe once a week and sleeps
at my house.  I just want you to know that I am not pining for him I
think about him alot but I know that I could live with out him  .
Well he started giving me hickeys and one of my friends asked me and
I
told her that he had given them to me .  I told him and he just kept
asking me why did I tell her b/c she has a big mouth , I just told
him
that I am not going to running around like a whore and him just a
little saint .  He never said anything more about it until the other
day he said that he was afraid that his mom was going to tell him
that
we had to get married and that he couldnt .  I just told him what the
hell are you taking about who said anything about getting married?
nothing was said.  We still hook up and I usually just ignore him no
just so that can live in his fantasy world. I just dont know what to
expect from this or should I just let it go and move on with my life?