Family Forum / Parenting / Step Parents / January 2007

I've never done one of these things so i dont really know how to start!..I
just have no one else to talk to and i really feel like i need advice!!! and
a stranger is my best freind at the moment! My situation is that my mother
has been with my step dad scince i was 2! i am 15 now! i have two other
sisters that were 4 and 7 they are now 17 and 20. he has never tried to even
act like their dad and we all know it!  my sister who is 17 has a different
biological dad than me and my oldest sister! so thats a main reason for her
and my oldsts sister well ... she's just older and her and i have never
really even known our real dad... i dont really know. But for some reason my
step dad has always said that he feels closer to me but he was never able to
show it because he didnt want the awkward difference with my sisters
therefore thats why he still doesnt know how to show it! But yet he is soooo
mean to me he says all he cares about is me going to school but I WANT TO GO
TO SCHOOL! just because i know my sisters were always in trouble i have
always been differnt from them. He says he doesnt want to see me end up like
them but yet the stuff that i am raised around ( fighting,yelling all the
time,gangs,drugs,...)i know how to handel myself he relly only makes it sooo
musch harder for me! and my mother, she talks sh.t about him all the ime but
when hes gonna do somthing for her then thats when she sticks up for him! she
always tells me that even if i have no friends which i dont any more cuz of
them thats she'll be ther for me and when i need to tell a secret to someone
i can tell her but she is such a HYPOCRIT!! because she called me out for
everything i dont do any thing bad like i said i already know to be smarter
than my sisters were but i recently lost my virginity and my mom was supposed
to be my freind! I HAVE NOBODY! and i know it! OHHHH and did i forget to
mention that mystepdad is on felony probation!! my best freind Kristi her and
my boyfreind  are the only people i have but my STEP dad this morning raised
a fit becuse i was late for school again but when we got ther no one was even
there! ther was NO scool today but yet he still kept screamin syain that he
was gonna make it where i didnt have any friends so thatment me and kristi
couldnt hang out any more! He doesnt know about my boyfreind because my
boyfreind is 18 and has a trouble past also... like i said i live in a town
where there is no avoiding it. but any ways WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN A SITUATION
LIKE THIS????? ANYONE!!! ADVICE ....HELP!!! PLEASE!!!!!